A Will To Live

I'm just getting home from the doctor's office. It felt like I spent hours there. I got some x-rays on my knees. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I won't have to do an MRI. After having major knee surgery 20 years ago, I'm a little afraid of having to go through that again as it was the most challenging thing I've had to live through. If necessary, I know that I can handle it and come out stronger.

Yesterday, I tuned in to watch Roger Ebert on Oprah and I didn't expect to find myself crying. Immediately, the emotions swelled and I was taken aback to be feeling so much. I felt great admiration for his courage to share his journey through thyroid cancer. I admired the love between him and his wife. I felt inspired in not only seeing the amazing joy he radiated, but the unbelievably will to live, to live with self accpetance and purpose.

As shared the emotions with Jason later on in the day, the tears came back. I knew that this was a moment I would carry with me for years to come. I didn't end up painting yesterday. In a little bit, I am going to work on the Jerome Caja inspired pieces. The piece to the left is titled Jerome Caja at Folsom. I chose this piece for todays blog as I also admired Jerome for being a light and inspiration in my life. His courage to live honestly, true to his own self, has stayed with me over the years.

I am going to use the inspiration from yesterday and paint today. I feel a great sense of gratitude for having seen Roger Ebert share his journey.

Thank You Roger for being a light and inspiration.

May you go out into the world and share your own light of inspiration.