Dont Play With Me

Ah coffee! I must wake up.

I can’t believe it’s been only 2 months since I started my series, ‘LITTLE.’ It feels like I’ve been doing it forever.
As a kid, I used to love playing alone. I could spend hours creating worlds and imaginary friends; it continued into my high school years. Luckily, I was fortunate enough to have a lock on my door; so I was allowed to be completely alone. Mama hated the locks on our doors, but they came with the house when we moved away from East LA to Pico Rivera. Now, I can look back and see why the the lock was important; it allowed me to play uninterrupted. My imagination was free to wonder! I think this is where 'LITTLE' really started.


Today, with LITTLE, I 'm spending hours alone in my apartment; I have regressed and I get to play again, Yea!

The piece here is titled, “Kickballing.” It’s inspired by my days playing kickball at school. Playing kickball in 2nd grade, I used kick the red rubber balls as hard as I could; I would run as fast as I could. I would try to catch the balls no matter if they hurt sometimes. It was never about winning, but about doing my best.

I remember some kids didn’t try; they didn’t run. They didn’t kick. Sometimes they just stood there already defeated. Even though I was only 7 years old, I wondered why they didn’t try. It bothered me that regardless of their abilities, their likes or dislikes, they didn't do their best.

It’s funny how a simple moment has stayed with me all these years. It’s been so much a part of who I’ve been and still am.

It’s NOT about winning or about being the best, but about doing the best for ‘me.’ It’s about NOT giving up no matter what and knowing that I have given it my ALL!

Have and beautiful Holiday weekend and may you go out into the world and be the very best of you.